cause i haven’t opened tumblr since fall finals eheh
in the law lib, with chips. lmao i’m such a shit student
it’s k; the 2 girls who got interns at Stikeman-Elliot found it retarded also.
3rd one tomorrow but i cba :)
06:30 - 14:30 WORK
15:00 - 22:00 STUDY
22:00 PHO WITH HUBBY
what a productive day :>
23:00 HOME &THE SHOW GOES ON (studying)
since i’m not a Concordia student, simply a squatter (gym, eat, study, sleep there)& a tell-the-student-committee-to-lower-the-volume-on-their-event-because-“students are studying for finals &can’t hear themselves think”-when-i’m-not-even-a-“student”-there eheh… i can’t infiltrate the library building after 11pm when John Molson building locks down, now i hear MB opens at 6am….
i shall see you then, dear friend!
PS: but Concordia wishes it had students like me ;)
kept half waking up every 5 minutes &felt such anguish
kept thinking “fuck i’ll never finish this paper, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck”
woke up 35min early to shower &get ready for the cocktail this evening, because i won’t have time after my last class
but then my dad was taking his sweet ass time in the bathroom &i only got to shower 25min later (which i could have spent trying to rest my head) &25min late to class
after i hand in this paper on friday (hopefully before the deadline, not like last time, i was so worried…), i have 4 & a half days to study for my first final (no, i haven’t started a single thing, with this freakin’ paper); then a little less than 13 days to study for the last 4 finals that will be held within 3 days, until december 16.
hope it all works out
well i haven’t had more than 6h of sleep a night for weeks, voire months…
i’m under a ton of stress from every aspect of my life at this point
but you couldn’t even tell :)
i seriously believe i’m losing a lot of hair from all this bottled up tension, wrinkles are forming on my forehead, my skin is less smooth & my shoulders hurt constantly. sans compter the inevitable shitbags under the eyes! (last semester when studying at a coffee shop on campus in Ottawa, i hear 3rd year law students say how Law School ages you… they knew their shit)
monday was thanksgiving; ohhh thanksgiving…. i studied 10 billion hours, k.
tuesday, i had 2 midterms, that is not all
wednesday, i had a 8h shift, then another midterm…
i repeat, 3 midterms & 8hours of work in 30some hours.
not so bad,
midterms would have passed by now…
or wouldn’t come around for another month at least
or that it was still summer
or i could find it acceptable for me to have less than a maximum coursload (6)
or i could ever contemplate taking a semester off
i wish i didn’t need to worry so much about everything, i wish i didn’t need to study incessantly, i wish i’d stop getting older so fast, i wish time would just slow down, i wish everyone would not expect the most out of me all the time, i wish i didn’t have to take care of every problem on my own, i wish…
i got to see my boyfriend 3 little times today,
i studied 4 h straight
i saw 5 people i know at concordia
i found out yesterday that my paper did get accepted! (no first time 0% for me!)
&i gave a bunch to charity, which i’ve been meaning to do for a while now :) heh
there’s like one over the other.. the old one made a freakin baby :(
i slept so little all week sighs
thursday: was writing my paper in the morning (8-11am), then went to hubby’s &accompanied him to school (11-11:30), then took the bus to school &found my master, the library (i’m its bitch….. 12-1pm), had class (1-4), then back to the master’s (4-8), then i was supposed to go study at concordia &went to see hubby at net cafe, but i couldn’t stand being in a school anymore so i just skipped to hubby’s before him, then he came home &i studied until 1:30am :( ! zzz &i had to drive myself home omg… being on the road as a passenger makes me sleepy already.. it’s like a horror movie when i’m at the wheel at 2am… slept at 2:30
friday: woke up at 5am to continue writing that paper… left home at 6 something with daddy, got to school at 7:30, went to the lib &worked on that paper until 1pm when i printed it &got royally fucked in the ass by the printing machine !!
PS. my paper was due 12pm SHARP, not a minute later, said my professor… by the time i got to the secretariat, it was closed for the weekend… i slid it under the door, with a hundreth of an inch of hope; but i’m kinda sure they’ll trash it monday morning… did i mention i’ve been working on it for 3 weeks &it’s worth a fuckload?!??
went to hubby’s to get a little comfort food :( then had to run away because bedbug guys came to spray, then loitered around downtown for a bit, then bestie came to join, then we sat at Second Cup for a while, then the twins joined, then went back to my place, ate, photoshoot…
around midnight, they were calling lifts to go home &twin#1 was going to eat with some friends &twin#2 wanted to go drink.. i wanted to drink too, to cheer up my shit ass studyful week, so instead of sleeping early like i planned since my previous 3h night, i went to a friend’s place at 1am…. he kept feeding us shots &mixed drinks & shisha, we were talking &talking, then i was seriously falling asleep! so he told me to take a nap before i drove home.. i was gonna leave around 2:30-3, then i KO’ed until 4am….. if me driving home sober at 2am is a horror movie, 4am with affected capacities &only 3h of rest in 48h is like…………………… let’s just say i legit fell asleep for 1 minute at 2 different red lights…. slept, uhm.. idk late
saturday: woke up at 7:15am, because i had a flight to Bay James with work at 9:30 &did not pack whatsoever…… our schedule was literally loaded from 12-10pm.. sighhhhh i KO’ed in the plane, then in the bus, then when the guide was making a presentation, then in the bus again.. &Hydro-Quebec stuffs its workers like a freakin’ xmas turkey.. like.. 4meals a day, i shit you not…. i fell asleep at 11something, finally :(
sunday: woke up at 7am &busy until 7pm &now i’m home, not studying when i should…
fmlfmlfmlfmlfml my face is decomposing by the day